Does your fear of abandonment take control of your life sometimes? And do you want to take that control back?? Do you want to react and make decisions, not from fear, but from love? Do you want to act – and react – in deep alignment with who you truly are?
Many times I’ve wondered why I keep choosing to fall in love when it typically brings up so much pain, discomfort, dependency, sadness, emptiness, fear, heartache, loss of focus, anger, anxiety, disgust, unease, loss of self, loss of freedom. You name it, it comes up for me. It can straight up feel like a form of masochism or an abusive relationship with Love itself, where the good parts are epically good, but the bad is so damn bad, there’s nothing worse in the world. And the deeper the love, the more frightening it can be and usually is. But I keep returning to it, my higher self keeps choosing it. Because my soul knows this is where I have the work to do in this lifetime.
DO YOU HAVE A DEEP FEAR OF COMMITMENT? I do. But I just never knew it. I have always felt FULLY available for romantic commitment; always wanting a man who wants all of me, forever. But the thing is, I have never ever chosen that man to love.